Today was the first time where I prayed for kids in a ministering session in my capacity as a leader. I was scared and excited. I have never done it before, and I didn’t know what to expect. After I was done, I scooted to the back of the auditorium. I was so unsure. But then, I felt the Holy Spirit, it was like a hug. It’s okay, Nat.
And now I realised, even if I didn’t really feel some awesome “holy” moment, it didn’t mean that nothing happened. Something I’ve learnt, God doesn’t always razzle and dazzle. When it comes to me, it is always simple. Not fireworks, but the warm, steady flame of a fire. It’s not me, how well I prayed, how confident I felt, but God working through me for these kids. They are so precious. Even when they make me sometimes feel like never having my own kids, I feel so much love for them. How much more is God’s unfaltering love?