It has been a crazy two days and I realised there are few people I can trust and truly know the intentions of. And also, there are very little patient and rational souls who would listen.

But I am thankful for Z. Thankful for not making me feel like I am burdensome, that I am not worth the addition of troubles, and for letting me share at my own comfort level.

It was a bad day. 

And in those moments of agony and panic, I realised that even though I messed up, God has still got my back. It is not about how good I am, or how much I have read my Bible - if anything, I have been a prodigal daughter - but the fact that He loves and cares for me.

It will be a tough journey ahead. And I pray that I do not change and become one of them. 

Be salty and shine bright, Nat.